So, 2025 is upon us

I am recently employed again after a dry spell seeing me leave the University (They wanted someone out, I assisted them in that area, but they didn't have be be such <redacted redacted> about it) and a 4 day tenure at a car dealership run by (and only for) the owner's family.

My wife and I called it quits last August. We're still friendly, but it's over. We have a toddler we coparent with their partner. The partner has been a part of Lena's life since day one, and is a great extra parent.

I find myself in a quandary. I am demisexual - This means I cannot have a physical relationship with anyone I'm not emotionally invested in. This can severely complicate any relationship. You want someone for fun and physical companionship but the way your brain works is you go all in, and they run, or worse, they don't. I have a tendency to spend too long with people who I should only date, or fall madly in love with people who should be friends. I have to find a way to not conjure a relationship in my mind just because they have 'delightful features' but the personality of a house cat thrown in a bath of vinegar.

I do not enjoy being single, and 'sole' (12 days out of 14) parent to a toddler. It makes me very lonely.

On the upside, I got a new job. I am now the development engineer for a prominent educational establishment in Colchester. I am here to develop their systems and improve their lot.

I have thrown myself into helping a friend and her lovely Nan move house and improving my home, many overlapping projects, and my own procrastination is, as ever, my enemy.